Weeknotes 2026-04-12

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Things are a bit better than last week, thankfully.

On Tuesday I demo’d an idea for a tool that’s intended to help developers carry out PR approval/feedback for agentic-generated PRs more easily - being well-aligned with company goals, it seemed to go down well, so hopefully I’ll escape firing by the time of the next performance review.

Even if I don’t, though - I’ve gotten a better handle on being able to view work as “something that I do”, not “something that defines me”. So - if I do end up not succeeding at this company, that’ll be ok, I’ll find a place where I will succeed, it doesn’t make me a failure. And in particular - there’s no point in working myself to death to keep up to an unsustainable standard; if that’s what’s required, this isn’t a good fit for me1. Trying to keep that mindset, anyway - we’ll see how well it stands up to actual pressure.

In entirely-related not-coincidences, I’ve started meditating again (just hit my 11 day streak), and I can literally feel it helping my calm and mood.

D&D with my wonderful friends is tomorrow. Now there’s an excellent example of a situation where I overwork myself and never regret one second of it, because it’s all going towards the benefit and pleasure of people that I love.

My partner’s back in the Bay Area after being home for her Mum’s funeral. I know from past experience that there’s likely to be some up-and-down feelings there for a while. It’s really heartening and lovely to see how the community has rallied around to support her. I love my community.

  1. though, in fact, I’m still pretty hopeful that I can find a way to thrive while also working reasonable hours. I’m not averse to the occasional overtime, whether for deadlines or through enthusiasm - but the regular 14-hour days, and working through weekends and PTO, that I was pulling when I first got told I was likely to be fired, were unsustainable. ↩︎