Weeknotes 2026-04-05

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Oof, it’s been a while. Not surprising, as this has been the most stressful couple of months I’ve had in a long time.

…I wrote and deleted a long blog post laying out the situation, then thought better of it. Suffice to say that my work situation is uncomfortable and unsupportive in ways that make me feel set up for failure, which doesn’t feel good as someone who derives a lot of their self-worth from their usefulness and competence. Recent therapy sessions have mostly focused on trying to undo that, and to instead figure out ways to work that will make me proud, irrespective of external validation.

Professional life aside, things have been kinda tough in my personal life as well; my partner’s Mum recently passed away from the same issue (brain aneurysm) that claimed my own Mum a couple years ago, and my puppy Bumi is going through a fearful period which is causing him to be a lot more responsive and barky. Tough times, man, tough times. But I’m really grateful for my friends and loved ones (and the one guy at work who has my back), and I’m trying to remain positive that things will be ok. I’ve been trying to rebuild/restart some healthy habits (moisturizing, meditating, regular workouts) and to mentally reward myself for doing so. We’ll get there.